January 2008


I know, horridly lame title. Deal.

Over the course of many years, I have had to deal with the worlds most annoying Trait:

Assumption.  Oh how I HATE assumption.  I’m human, I’m guilty of it too I’m no saint but I CATCH MYSELF before I open my big fat mouth.  (Which of course is miraculous that i have that occasional ability.)  My ex was the worst in the world when it came down to assumption, but then again he was slightly off kilter and controlling and swore up and down I was cheating on him.  Funny story, except not really. 

To me, it really isn’t that hard to just stop and think perhaps thats not what they meant by that or perhaps they aren’t saying _______ to do ______ to me or what have you. 

Or for example just because there is some swearing in a letter than im suddenly MAD oh noez!  I swear alot, and if you know me well enough you should know better than to assume I’m mad when I swear..It usually isn’t the case anyhow.

Really all assumption does these days is cause misunderstandings and rifts between friends just because one or both of them was too stupid to stop and remember:

Assume makes an ass out of you and me!

-Liv.

One of my bigger pet peeves these recent years has been discovered finally after a conversation with a friend a couple of weeks ago.   Lets use an example here;

Co-worker: “Hi there Liv, how are you doing today?”

Me: “Oh you know, exausted from having to get up so early”

Co-worker: “Well you know there are people out there who have to be up all night and some who have to work multiple jobs and some BLAH BLAH BLAH”

Me: “…”

Those sorts of comments REALLY FUCKING PISS ME OFF.   I cannot express in any way shape or form how angry that simple “people have it so much worse” comment makes me.  Really.  You asked me how I was feeling.  I told you.  Plain as that.  I wasn’t picking out a time to bitch and moan, I stated truthfully how I was feeling.

I am fully aware that there are people out there whos life sucks ass, but I do not need to be fucking humbled by you.  Any of you.  My heart goes out to those people it does, and I know I am not the god given center of the universe but if you ask me how I am feeling I am going to tell you.  I feel like shit, I feel fantastic, Im tired, Im sick. End of story.  If you want to start into this long drawn out lecture about other people then im going to a. slap you in the fucking face or b. turn my back to you and walk away.

My situation sucks for ME, that is why i will tell you i am unhappy, or i feel ill.  I wont sugar coat it and be like “well im not feeling good but other people have it worse wah wah wah”. 

Moral of the story:  I do not need anyones lectures about other peoples misfortunes, I am aware but if you ask me how I am feeling then I will tell you and I don’t want to hear about the millions of homeless.

Fucking annoying shit.

-Liv.

I was perusing VA again because I never actually work at work around lunch time (and anyhow we are about to get sent home as the power is going to go off…fuckin storm) and was reading one of her more recent posts about “loving yourself” and such jargon.
indulge yourself Here:

THANK. GOD. Read it and you will understand my large amounts of joy and rapture.

SOMEONE FOR ONCE AGREES WITH ME ON THIS SUBJECT! Lord, everyone always used to tell me: “you need to love yourself, Liv! You can’t love someone until you know how to love yourself, it doesn’t work”.  I always thought bull fucking shit.  I can love better than most of those fucking balloon headed therapists.

why?

Because I will put EVERYONE before myself.  I will sacrifice almost anything for the ones I love.  Sure sometimes it can borderline idiotic how MUCH I will sacrifice but hey. 

I hate these idiot self help books.  My boyfriend (bless his heart) tried to get me to read some, but really all it did was infuriate me.  They were wrong and I knew it, because nothing made sense, it went againt everything I stood for and believed in.  Screw that shit, now that I know I’m not THAT crazy, I am sticking with what I know and fuck everyone else who says otherwise.

Ill stab you in the eye.